+-- Jz not gunna study nemre...I was so disappointed. Even though i knew that he had to manage his shop..and he has his own difficulties..but i just want him to continue studying. He has been working a lot..7days a week frm 9am to 9pm. I want him to take a break frm his wking life and spend time wif me. i can understand that he did his best to make some time to be wif me. But out of 140days we've been together..we onli spent 20days...going out. Although we'll see each othda time to time..but itz realli not enuff.. I said some pretty mean stuff..and it wasn;t bout J....it was about his parents..I dun realli mean it at all..but i guess it realli did make him mad. .But..i ...dun wan to feel so alone anymore. Its so sad to be in a relationship and yet feel so alone. When i am upset..I wanted him so much to be here for me..but he has no time..he's always bz running the store...even if i did call him and tell him my problems...wat can he do? I 'm unreasonable at times..but it realli hurts so bad...inside. I once told him that no matta how hard itz gunna be...i'll wait for him..but itz so easy for me to sae and itz so hard to do it...I wish there would be a way out of these...i've had a relationship in da past..where diz guy is always so bz playing games and wking..and i'm not even sure wat i meant to him......but it hurts so bad..and i dun eba wan these feelings to come back again...hopefulli me and J would work fings out tonite.. --+